Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. β€œI would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. β€œI was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. β€œIt robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. β€œThe earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient β€œsuffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like β€œa modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. β€œYou're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: β€œThe length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Janice Riggs
Janice Riggs

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